Let Go….Let Go

In silence, I suffer
Alone, I cry…..

In my thoughts,
I argue
I convince
I explain
I justify

In my heart,
I feel hurt and pain
A sense of regret
A sense of wondering.

I question, “where did I go wrong?”
I loved yet I failed, I loved yet I hurt
I search for answers
I search for myself

I end up with I don’t know
I am lost
There is no me anymore
I am lost.

I don’t know who am I anymore
I don’t know what I feel anymore
I don’t know
I don’t know.

I am numb
I am hurting but I don’t feel
I want to cry but I can’t
I want to express but I could not.

I pray but I don’t know what to say
I asked forgiveness but I can’t seem to feel sincerity
I asked for guidance yet I can’t comprehend
I submitted myself yet I can’t seem to trust fully.

I hope yet it seemed dark and confusion all the more
I want to give up yet I grasp on like I don’t want to let go
I am falling to pieces yet I don’t seem to care and
I don’t take action.

I am not me…..
I can’t go on like this….
I should….I must…..
But how?

Where should I go?
What path should I take?
Why should it be?
When will this end?

I don’t know!!! I want to go
Away where I can be…..
ME….
Let go……let go……

Well, my friends, did I make you teary eyed? I believe the message is….
Let go…let go….
And let God do the rest. Amen?

 

Where Are You?

We met at the beach of Friendship
With white sands of joy and laughter
Peace and serenity.

And together we went sailing
Until we reached
The deep sea of love.

Why did you bring me there and then
Left me alone to its giant waves of fear
And depression trying to engulf me?

Where are you?
Where are you?
Have you reached the shore safely?

My Secret Longings (Excerpt from my book “In Love With Love”)

For Husbands and Wives:

Are you aware of your spouse’s longings?

Beloved, I long to share with you
My joy when a new poem is born.

To make you listen to the love songs
I hear of the birds at dawn.

From your lips I long to hear again
The words of love that makes me glow.

The way the buds bloom with every kiss
Of the morning dew.

Just A Little

For The Youth, The Sons and Daughters, For Parents

Ears strumming with shouts…..
Eyes filled with tears…..
Heart full of sadness…..
Feelings of bitterness…..

Not wanting much from the world…..
Just a little note of concern…..
Just a little kindness…..
A simple deed of care…..
A little gentleness…..
A little hint of love…..

Yet, why do I feel guilty…..
when I am too tired…..
when I miss my chores…..
when I ask money…..
when I eat more than my share…..
when I am sick…..

A little concern…..
A little care…..
A little sympathy…..
A little gentleness…..
A little love…..

Not too much to ask from you…..
Is it?……